Shy or Arrogant?

I must admit that I'm suffering from a bit of writer's block, which I'm actually kinda pleased about. I mean, who knew that I'd write enough to get a blockage?

The problem is that I decided early on not to comment on anything that's going on in the world. So may others do it so much better than I could, so what's the point in me joining in? The problem is that it only leaves my own life to comment on, and as you've noticed my life seems to simply involve going to bars, getting drunk and sleeping with men. Nothing wrong with that, but there's only so much you can say about it.

So, what now? Do I try to add some form of social commentary? Do I delve into politics? Or do I stick with what I'm good at - sleeping around and telling you the gory details? Answers on a postcard please...

In the meantime let me tell you about something that annoyed me at the weekend.

Now, at 5 feet 8 I'm kinda short, and hairy. I'm not slim, or overly fat, or very well muscled; rather, I'm just a bit chunky. So I fall into a camp (ahem) somewhere between Bears and MuscleBears. Most of my friends are pretty well built though, so I tend to hang around with guys who, under other circumstances, I would find rather intimidating (and I must admit to finding most of my friends rather sexy). As a result of who I hang out with I get to meet some pretty hot guys and - this is where the annoying bit comes in - I largely get ignored by them. It's like I just don't show up on their radar, like I'm flying too low or something.

A case in point; there's a certain guy, a South African, who's reasonably well known on the London MuscleBear scene and who The Boyf once had a little tryst with. They shagged, basically. As a result if we see him out The Boyf always goes over to say Hi. The first couple of times The Boyf made a point of introducing me - "You know my boyfriend, right?" - and the South African would kind of grunt and nod in my direction, and afterwards The Boyf and I would always disagree on whether he was shy or just plain arrogant.

So, how can you tell, if someone is a little stand-offish, whether they're shy or arrogant?

Last weekend we bumped into the South African in the RVT. The Boyf gave him a cheery "Hi!" as he walked past and got one back, and a hug. The South African looked me straight in the eyes so I gave him a big cheery "Hello !". And you know what he did? Looked me square in the eyes then turned his back on me.

As far as I'm concerned he's burned his final bridge with me. The Boyf's all like "Oh give him another chance. He's just shy. Maybe he didn't recognise you", and I'm all like "He DID recognise me. He's been introduced to me umpteen times over the last couple of years. He's just an arrogant twat".

So I've devised my revenge. I'm gonna get really muscley and he's gonna want to speak to me. And I shall take great delight in completely ignoring him.

Possibly.